MS 24 hour mega swim

In July this year I will be participating in the annual 24 hr megaswim which raises funds for people living with MS. In 24hrs my team has to swim as many laps as we can. Im so excited to be part of this event.

Id love it if you could sponsor me even in a small way.

Click here for more details: http://events.megaswim.com/?clubmeegan

Adventerous Andy

Little bugger got into the butter...what fun to clean up too

A very tough week

This week saw me recieving news that an old school buddy of mine passed away in tragic circumstances. I was devasated and shocked. David "Wally" was always the fun one. Always the one joking around and the 'go between' guy working out everyones problems.

I last spoke to him 2 years ago, he seemed happy and content after having another little baby girl. I remember he wouldnt even come out for drinks with us and chose to stay home with his partner and help with the children.

My fondest memory of Wally was when I was dating my childhood sweet heart and one true love Paul. We went over the Wallys house in the school holidays and he came up to me in all seriousness and asked me if Paul could touch my boob. He was always thinking of his mates. I was so embarrased.

Another time him and a few friends decided it would be safe to have a smoke at school and they found the perfect spot- under the teachers staff room. Of course the smoke went straight up and they got sooo busted.

We also caught the bus in our group to and from school. Wally and Paul were always loaded with money, they mustve had huge allowances. We would get hot chips and fresh bread rolls near the bus station and hang out under the patrick mall car park while they had a fag. I remember it was chips with chicken salt a drink from franklins to save money and a bread roll to make a chip sanga. If we didnt have enough money we could barter with others in the group and we would end up having a good feed.

Those were the days.

David leaves behind 4 children and a partner. My heart goes out to them and his amazing family.

I cant believe how much his little boy looks like him- David take two.

I also came to realize I lost two friends this week :(

I cant go into it and I dont want to right now, maybe in time I will. But I have well and truely lost the only boy/man that I have ever truely loved with every beat in my heart and every breath in my lungs. I have to accept that this is the cards Ive been dealt, I need to live with them no matter how much it hurts. I need to let go, completely. I tried to once but he came back. I even asked him to help me delete all our photos together so I had no memories of our times together but he refused. He wanted me to keep them. I still have my love letters from 20 yrs ago. But all that has to go. My whole life will revolve around my children and my duty as a mother. I now completely understand I will never be happy in my own life and have someone for me but that maybe my purpose in life is to be a mother and nothing else.

So Ive cleansed myself once and for all of this person, all is gone. Im hoping in time I develop enough memory loss that I completely forget.

This week was not a very good week at all :(

MIA but back in action

WOW its been a pretty full on couple of weeks, I havent been able to sit down long enough to update my beloved blog, but Im back now and promise to keep you all updated.

Ive had 2 neices born in the last 2 months. Nathan and Rachel had a lovely little girl called Lily Rose born on the 24th of december.

Adam and Sarah had a gorgeous bubba Annabel Mylee born on 27th of January.

I've finally got some pink to spoil....cant wait, bit of a pink drought in my house at the moment.

Ive met my dear Annabel but havent yet met Lily which is disappointing but hopefully will see her soon.

Baby Annabel and mummy Sarah having a cuddle

Annabel and daddy

My Cloth wearing Bubba

I didnt think Id love cloth nappies so much but that was until I learnt about MCN's or modern cloth nappies, they are the coolest things ever and Andy has a great supply of some very funky nappies, it also saves heaps of money and isnt that bad cleaning them. Im pretty stoked with the savings and everyone comments on his very cute bum.

My favourite nappies are the itti bitti d'lish and the CGR customs like the one above but the best news ever is that Ive been given a sewing machine and overlocker so I can now make my own. I cant wait to show them off.

3rd Anniversary

The 19th of January marked the anniversary of my dads passing. Not a day goes by when I dont think of him or wish he was here. Its also my mums birthday which is extra hard as she never wants to celebrate or have a cake or do anything. Its hard to be happy for her yet still be so sad for my dad not being here. He would have turned 60 next month, in June they wouldve celebrated 40 yrs of marriage.

He was called Dad, Pa Tezza, Dadda and tata salad.

This is how I will always remember my dad

The big move

The last month has also seen us move house. We were renting a lovely brand new place but it never felt like home, we werent allowed to put photos on the walls and I love my photos, we also had no privacy as the owners had a holiday unit attached to the main house. It never felt right. So when they said they were putting the rent up I looked elsewhere. I found an awesome house. 4 bedrooms, plus a granny flat for my mum. Heated pool, air con fireplace, spa, even a double shower in my ensuite, all on 5 acres. I was stoked. We moved in two weeks ago and love the place. It feels more like home and the best news of all is that is possible could become ours if things pan out this year as I hope they will. I'll just have to wait and see.....

Ill post some photos up very soon