The last few days have been spent appreciating those around me and enjoying some much needed time out back at home.

Last friday I went back to the neurologist where he told me he would give me 2 weeks to decide what medications I wanted to start. One is an injection every week that makes you sick, the other is a daily injection with less side affects. Haven't decided yet, will decide at the last minute. The bad news is, I can't fall pregnant on these injections and its not good to come on and off them so I'm weighing up whether to wait a few months or start them now. Right now I don't know.

One thing I love to do with the boys is when I don't feel like cooking we make platters of fruit and cheeses up for dinner and sit down having a little party together. All the boys love their platters and happily sit and eat all the goodies on them. Josh shovels all the fruit in and loves the cheeses, he is even learning how to dip his bickies into the dip. Its very cute. Unfortunately I don't have all my furniture or my nice platters with me so we have to make do with what we have.

Cody is on a holiday with my mum for the next two weeks and only having 2 kids is such a change. It is soooo quiet. I'm not used to it. Its like my left arm is missing.

So everyone pretty much knows Im a big loser, hehe. I took the time the other day to go and see Andrew and Thomas from big brother. The boys were totally bored and I acted like a total spoilt child when they wanted to go home. It put me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Andrew is extremely good looking and Thomas is sooo tall.

Stephen has been sooo good lately. He is really trying and putting in an effort to make our relationship work. We are currently getting some quotes to build on his 10 acres and hopefully will have something underway soon. This is great as next week is our anniversary. We have had 5 very hard, difficult, and sometimes traumatic years but in the end it is him who stands next to me when times get tough. Relationships can be difficult, no ones perfect but in the end we just asked ourselves do we want to leave and be friends or stay and work things out, we decided to stay and work things out. Lately we have been closer than ever before. He has dealt with having a partner tell him my health will slowly get worse and he stepped up to build us a home and make sure I'm ok and the boys are ok. I don't even have to work next year if I don't want to. I'm planning on getting a really good camera for my birthday and be a mum and photographer for a while and maybe work the odd shift as a midwife. Nothing too heavy. Just caring for my boys and my man.

It was so nice to spend a few days looking at the clearer sky, greener trees and less pollution. Im planning on going home for a whole week next week which will be cool just relaxing.

Saw my Nephew Oskar the other day too. He is such a lovely boy.