My breastfriend

My little man is no longer breastfed. Due to my MS medications I've had to stop breastfeeding. It was such a lovely time and Im so sad its over already.

Presenting.....My niece or nephew

Adam and Sarah had their first ultrasound this week and I can tell they are really excited cause we all got the ultrasound piccies emailed to us. I was secretly hoping it would be twins as payback to Adam but its only one baby. Just as well. Im hoping for a girl but as a wild guess I'm saying its a boy.

My Vege Patch

A few months ago I started a vege patch but thought I'd killed all my beautiful veges, the other day I was walking around the gardens and came across my dead vege patch that had started to grow again.

I found strawberrys, cauliflower, carrots, onions, spring onions, and lots more, so the last couple of days have seen me in my vege patch mulching, replanting and weeding my garden.

Can't wait to see it in a fewweeks time.

Bacon and Eggs anyone??

Stevie our puppy waiting for his breakfast
mmmm annoying the cook by taking photos of him cooking our breaky

Every weekend we have bacon and eggs or pancakes for breaky. This weekend it was BBQ bacon and eggs cooked up by steve, yummmyyyyy

Me and my man

Has it been easy??? OMG no....

Your my friend, my lover, and the father to my babies.

Life isnt easy for us but we are still here and together working through a whole pile of things that go wrong but we do it together.

So thank you for wanting me, thank you for waiting for me and thank you for giving me my boys. For that I truely love you

My little man, 8 weeks old

Time flys. I cant believe little Andy is 8 weeks old already....

Andrew is such a happy baby, he laughs all the time, especially at 3am in the morning when he wakes mummy up for a feed. The clever little boy is trying to roll over and his little left foot goes like he is starting a bike up......Oh they grow up so quickly

Our house,....... in the middle of our street.......

My Balinese stone head
The front of our home

The above piccy is the view from the front of my house

The above photo is my back yard

Our new weight bench that has now become a shoe rack

The corn boy

Dont you just love my 'corn boy' Joshua just loves corn, this is a whole fresh corn cut in half and he eats both halves!!!! SOmetimes he wants more.

FAMILY TIME

We had a visit from my brother and his family today, even though it was freezing cold, we still had a lovely roast for lunch with a Pavlova for desert, of course my kitchen assistants had fun helping. Hayley is Nathans biological daughter, although there is no mistaking this. Danni is Nathans step daughter.

Today would have been my mums and dads 39th wedding anniversary so it was kinda a day to be together for my mums sake, such a great women who helps me out so much

6 weeks and big smiles

My cute little man smiling. I cant believe he is 6 weeks old already, Time flys....So cute

My Big Boy

Its really hard to believe Im a mummy to a boy in High School, but I am. Cody started high school this year and is getting so big. Here he is at his year 6 graduation.

My little boys room

I just love JOshuas little toddler bed!!!, its a Nemo theme room, gotta add more stuff to make it more 'fishy'

How cute!!!!

Mothers Day 2008

Trying to get 4 boys to look at the camera and smile was a big challenge. We had a lovely day and my boys always try to do something special for me in their own special way. Joshua made a beautiful card and heart shaped photo poem with his hand prints, very very cute. Joel got to buy something at the mothers day stall and picked out a beautiful photo frame, Cody and Andrew went shopping and bought me some perfume (WISH), and the Underbelly series...WOOHOO. I also got some lotto tickets and scratchies. We bought mum some Betty boop stuff which she loves!!!!!

I LOVE MOTHERS DAY!!

Andrew

My sleeping prince

The Speedy arrival of Andy Williams

The Birth Story of
Andrew Raymond Williams- Malouf (yes we changed his name after 12 hours from Ryan Andrew!!!!!)
Knowing that this was my 4th and last pregnancy, I was determine to enjoy every second, even the bad stuff. I was satisfied that this was my last baby and content that I would never be doing this again.
I finished work when I was 36.5 weeks pregnant, by then I was well and truly ready to have a few weeks rest before having another baby in the house. My maternity leave couldn’t have come any quicker to be honest. It was time for me to enjoy the remainder of my pregnancy and the birth of a new life in the house.
At this time I also began doing everything I could to have a spontaneous labour including expressing and storing this away in the freezer to use in the first few days after I had the baby.
At 39 weeks I had a discussion with my Dr and it was decided I would be booked in for an induction the following week on the 2nd of May 2008. I knew what to expect with another induction but still desperately wanted a spontaneous birth.
Experiencing weeks of pre labouring, I woke early on the 1st of May thinking I had ruptured membranes. With no pain I did what I had to do, made beds, got children ready for school, packed the rest of my bag, before Steve and I drove down to Sydney to have the baby at my workplace, a 3 hour drive away. We decided we would stay in a hotel the night before and go out for dinner with some friends. All very relaxing, or so I planned. I even wanted to get a pedicure so my feet would look nice.
We arrived in Sydney sometime after 1pm and went straight to the Day assessment unit where they called my Dr. After a Spec exam he said he wasn’t convinced I had ruptured membranes and we would stick with the original plan of an induction the following day. I had everything organised. 2 middie friends were also going to be support people and they had strict instructions to make sure I had heaps of photos and videos of the birth and straight afterwards. They were alsoon call should I need them before hand as well.
So Steve and I booked into our hotel, about 5 mins drive from the hospital, stuffed around setting up the movie channel and even swapped rooms as the first room faced a huge intersection and was really noisy. Settling in for a rest before getting ready to go out, we began watching the movie ‘Wild Hogs’, Steve was laughing at the movie and I was reading a magazine lying down.
It must of been about 3:20pm when I felt this ‘pop’ on my right side, strange feeling like the baby had grabbed the amniotic sack and pinched it, 3 mins later I felt the biggest gush of warm fluid and knew that without a doubt my waters had broken. I told Steve that I definitely had ruptured membranes, when he asked me what we should do, I simply said, ‘finish watching the movie and hang out until something else happens.’ And that’s what we did.
At about 4pm I started to get my first contraction, at 4:30pm I told Steve we wouldn’t be going anywhere tonight except to have our baby. I rang the hospital and told them what had happened and also text my support people to let them know. The hospital told me I had to come back in ASAP. Bugger.
So me being me decided to have a shower, meet my younger brother for a quick hello and get my stuff organised. I was contracting every 5 to 8 mins but wasn’t too worried as it was no where near the painful contractions I had experienced in my other labours.
We must’ve ended up back at the hospital at about 6pm. I had the usual, a CTG- happy baby- irregular contraction. They then told me the birth unit was full and they had a bed for me upstairs in the antenatal ward until my induction. I politely informed them that I would be requiring drugs (gas) in the next hour and that I’d be having this baby before the morning. So they told me to hang around and go get a coffee and wait for a room in the birth unit.
Yeah right, I think I got 10 metres when Steve told me I wasn’t going anywhere, yep I was now in established labour . I guess because I was relaxed and calm and not making any noise you could be mistaken for thinking I wasn’t in pain at all, but I was secretly in agony with every contraction and tried to pass the time chatting with people and text messaging friends. I even told one of my support people that I wasn’t doing much and not to hurry in but really I wasn’t that far away from holding my baby.
My heavy breathing during contractions must’ve got some attention as the next thing I knew a wheelchair was ready to take me up stairs to the birth unit. Still very busy when I arrived, I was put into an assessment room until a room was available; thankfully the assessment rooms are big and new and just like a birth room anyway.
It must’ve been about 7:20pm when we arrived in the birth unit and no one came in for what seemed like ages. I told Steve to press the buzzer, I wanted gas and I wanted it now. Still no one came. I remember Steve saying to me, ‘Not again’ referring to no one being around when our last son was born and only walked in when Steve yelled out the baby’s coming.
With contractions on top of one another, my legs were tired, Id been hip rocking and standing, leaning on anything I could since I got to the hospital and decided to sit on the edge of the bed. With the next contraction I felt the baby’s head start to descend even further and told Steve the baby is coming, he casually walked to the door and called out ‘the baby’s coming’. Three words to guarantee attention in a birth unit. With no delivery trolley, or synto to assist with third stage. I remember one midwife calling out to others to grab the gear they needed. It must’ve taken them about 3 mins to have everything in the room ready to go. Everything except the gas, the one thing that I wanted.
I asked them again to get the gas, they did an internal and surprise surprise I was fully dilated. Still requesting the gas they told me if I wanted to I could push, I told them I’ll hold it in until I get the gas. They asked me how I would push the baby out with the gas and I simply told them I would breath the baby out. I did exactly that.
I had a total of about 7 minutes of Gas sucking for dear life as I attempted to slowly help my baby into the world.
Little Andrew Raymond arrived after a 3 hour labour and 7 minute second stage at 7:42pm. Crying Pink and breathing.
A total uneventful labour with nothing significant to write about. It was very relaxing because I was relaxed and Steve was relaxed because I was.
To compare my 4 births- there is no comparison for me. A spontaneous labour and birth was a great experience after 3 inductions which I now describe as horrid and hard core.
I am in a happy place now, completely satisfied that I’ve had my children and content to watch them grow up into men.

You ask me if I love you

And I choke on my reply

I'd rather hurt you honestly

Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you

On what you say or do?

I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy

Leaves me battling with my pride

But through the insecurity

Some tenderness survives

I'm just another writer

Still trapped within my truth

A hesitant prize fighter

Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you

And drive you to your knees

At times I'd like to break through

And hold you endlesslyAt times I understand you

And I know how hard you've tried

I've watched while love commands you

And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters

Still searching for a friend

A brother or a sister

But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Me 37.3 weeks

No make up, no hair done, no bra on, just me

Ozzie

My nephew Oskar is growing up so fast

37 weeks and counting

I've really enjoyed this pregnancy. Mostly because Im more aware of whats happening but also because pregnancy puts my ms into remission kinda.

I'm also more settled in myself. I don't stress over the small things and try to focus on the positives.

Right now, I think Im starting to go into labour, Not sure if I've pissed myself or if my waters have broken, pretty stupid considering I'm now a midwife. Its not huge gushes but something is going on.

Surprise, surprise I rang the hospital and they are too busy to even see me. I'll just stay at home and have the baby here should I?

Im off to pack my hospital bag and tidy up the house so I come back to a nice clean home.

MIA but not back on board

Its been a while since I posted, partly because I was focused on finishing my midwifery degree and partly because I haven't had internet access at home.

The short story:

Lots has happened.

I've now completed all of my requirements for my degree and just waiting on paper work. Phew, one of the hardest years of my life.

Im now 30 weeks pregnant!!!!! Hasn't that gone fast. 10 weeks to go.

Im still working at the moment, hopefully wrap up things there in the next three weeks. I need time to organise my lovely new home and get the baby gear ready.

In december the family chrissy party was once again held. My little brother Nathan and his son Oskar came. Got some awesome photos. He couldnt keep his eyes off his daddy and wouldn't let him go either. It was such a beautiful time for them.

I got heaps more pics just not enough time to post them. I will be back th0ugh.

The pacemaker- a car that speeds on the highway and you follow so the police pick them up for speeding and not you.

Time flys when your so friggin tired...

August is always a big month for us, Joels birthday is the 19th and Joshuas birthday is the 23rd, with 8 years difference the two days are very different from each other.

Joel unfortunately put a dark cloud over his day by throwing a chair at his older brother Cody only to miss and smash a $600 glass door, so that was one of his presents, that and not being able to have a party. He was only allowed a family affair with a nice dinner and cake and of course presents.

To put another downer on the day, Cody broke his finger two days before and we spent two days in hospital. Oh the joys of having little boys. Joshua had a lovely day, when he woke up he didnt expect to see all new toys ready for him to play. He also loved trying to blow out his candles, they werent actually candles I had sparklers instead so he was blowing in vain and more for my amusement. Not really he loves sparklers and we had to do the whole happy birthday routine 3 times!!!!

So with birthdays out of the way, Cody goes back into surgery this friday to have to wires taken out of his finger- so such a small bone it has turned into a major drama, poor little man.

So the big news (as previously mentioned), I had some blood tests and an ultrasound and drum roll............Im due on the 6th of May 2008. So far so good. I feel very pregnant, the smallest smell makes me want to spew and Im so tired. I plan to totally embrace my last pregnancy and enjoy every second, even the bad things......

Everyone keeps asking me what I want. With three boys what do you think??? A healthy baby..

OOPS I did it again

I can't believe its been over a month since I posted....That must be a record for me.

I've got some very exciting news......

I'M PREGNANT!!!!!

OMG, I know, I'm excited, bloody freaking out and totally blown away. My family are all that matters to me.

I did 3 pregnancy tests last thursday 30th of August, went to Dr today and made her do another one just to be sure....

I dont even know when Im due, some time in March or April, will keep you all informed.