You ask me if I love you

And I choke on my reply

I'd rather hurt you honestly

Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you

On what you say or do?

I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy

Leaves me battling with my pride

But through the insecurity

Some tenderness survives

I'm just another writer

Still trapped within my truth

A hesitant prize fighter

Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you

And drive you to your knees

At times I'd like to break through

And hold you endlesslyAt times I understand you

And I know how hard you've tried

I've watched while love commands you

And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters

Still searching for a friend

A brother or a sister

But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Me 37.3 weeks

No make up, no hair done, no bra on, just me

Ozzie

My nephew Oskar is growing up so fast

37 weeks and counting

I've really enjoyed this pregnancy. Mostly because Im more aware of whats happening but also because pregnancy puts my ms into remission kinda.

I'm also more settled in myself. I don't stress over the small things and try to focus on the positives.

Right now, I think Im starting to go into labour, Not sure if I've pissed myself or if my waters have broken, pretty stupid considering I'm now a midwife. Its not huge gushes but something is going on.

Surprise, surprise I rang the hospital and they are too busy to even see me. I'll just stay at home and have the baby here should I?

Im off to pack my hospital bag and tidy up the house so I come back to a nice clean home.